I’m damn pissed. I’m damn confused. I’m damn sad. Argh. Everything is falling apart. I can’t stand it anymore. The last time I felt this way was more than 10 years ago.

Everything is so screwed up, but I can’t do anything about it. There’s always something or someone screwing things up for me. For the rest of the time, I’m screwing myself. Not literally.

I’m not used to pouring my emotions and problems out to people around me. I prefer to tackle problems myself. But I always end up ignoring or running away from the problems.

I have to face these problems myself, but I’m helpless. Furthermore, there is no one out there who has the ability to help me. I used to be able to pick myself up whenever I fall. But this time, I think I’m going to fall right through the ground, six feet under, into dead silence.

I only have one last wish. I hope my fall will not implicate others. But if it does, then blame it on me la.

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